So, I think I had a moment today. I think I'm officially ready to move forward in my life. I don't quite know what happened, but for the longest time, as much as I've tried not to, I have found myself longing for a man in mylife, I was pretty desperate, it was quite pathetic. Constantly trying to contact every single guy that I had in my life asking them if they wanted to hang out, bribing them with such notions as "I'll make food and we can have drinks". If one of them didn't respond it was on to the other...I know it's wretched, and I am even hesitant to post this, because I feel so lame, but I have come to realize that the right guy will make the effort to be with me. And the truth is I'm sick of pretending that there could possibly be something there when there's not. I know what I want so I've decided to just put it out there and just know that eventually it will happen, time to stop being desperate and lonely and time to start being strong and empowered.
Another thing that's on my mind right now. As I mentioned in the title this specific blog is just a bunch of random thoughts. So, I watched a montage of Will Smith today talking about the Law of Attraction and Secrets to Success and the one particular thing that he said that really hit hard was this: "There's no point in having a plan B because it distracts from plan A". This really struck a chord in me because, I realized that that's what I've been doing, instead of just believing that everything will work out with what I really want, I'm constantly worrying about, "What if it doesn't, what else do I need to do right now, just in case" and although I feel like this is being responsible, it's really not, it's as Mr. Smith said, distracting from my original plan. So I am making a promise to myself that instead of freaking out and being negative and wondering how it's going to work out or worrying that thing's aren't going to work out, I'm just going to work as hard as I possibly can, I feel like I'm doing everything I can but there's still more that I need to do, for example, those rare times when I'm not working both jobs, I need to spend the time I have free from both jobs, studying or networking or researching or creating or spending time with the other two Whovians my sweet wee bobbins, or cleaning the house. Never giving up because although the Universe is on my side, I need to aid the Universe in aiding me, meaning doing everything in my power, having faith, praying, being kind, giving back to others, even if it is just a smile at some random person or saying hello to someone, I've said it before and I"m sure I will say it again, sometimes it's even the tiniest actions that can mean the world to someone. I want to make the world a better place, I want to live the life of my dreams, I want to give my wee bobbins everything the deserve, and that means working hard and believing we can and will do it!
So, how do these two random thoughts work together? Well if I'm not so focused on being single and lonely, then I can focus my energy on other things, such as being the mom I want to be, being the woman I want to be, giving my bobbins the life they deserve, and making this life the very best life possible. I foresee that this is going to be a lot of work, but I'm willing to accept that and I'm willing to do whatever I must because without hard work and determination we wouldn't have anything that we have in this world now. It's time to have faith and believe and just go out there and do it. This life is mine to do with it what I will, and if I want things to be different I need to do things differently. So there you have it, and HERE WE GO!! "You must be the change you wish to see in the world".
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